At the beginning of the year, I was struggling with now knowing my mission or purpose in life. At times I think there are too many instances when I've felt that I've had to do something so significant or world changing in order to have self validation or feel like I've "completed" something. I think this beautiful quote really says it all:
"We don't have to go in search of our mission or purpose. The more we search for it, the more it will elude us. We just have to be ourselves and find our joy in the present moment or do what calls us in the present moment and our mission will unfold." - Anita Moorjani
Thursday, August 21, 2014
A Bit of an Accent....
So, many of you know that when I was in high school (Kamehameha Schools) I went to Rarotonga, in the Cook Islands for a student exchange program. This was the summer between grades 11 and 12. Man alive, I can't express how fun and crazy that time was as well. Even though I am a Polynesian, it's sometimes weird to feel so white with my brown skin.
Seriously - if you haven't read my blog entry about going to Hawai'i in 2009 with my friend Julie. Well, in the pictures, you'll see me sipping on a coconut. I believe I wrote something to the effect of "here's a picture of two coconuts". It's true. Sometimes I feel like I'm brown on the outside but white on the inside! LOL... truth is, I'm just me.... with all my awkward and quirkiness.
Anyway, I met this lady (before I got to have a massage!!!!!). Her name is Anna. Needless - to - say, she had questions about the massage school of which I was able to help her with. But, when I got to the counter to speak with her, I had this instant bond with her and I didn't quite know why - yet. It wasn't until she spoke a few words... I knew I was speaking to another island native. She was from Australia. It was quite hilarious when she kept talking, my Cook Island accent started coming back out. My co-workers were staring at me and laughing their butts off. Goodness, it felt weird to speak like that again, yet, I couldn't shut it off! My words were faltering until I accepted it and allowed it that it flowed without struggle. It was lovely.
When we hugged goodbye I felt that she was homesick and I told her "I know your heart is aching, and know that home is always going to be with you." She broke down in my arms... I held and embraced her while she cried. It was a beautiful little journey. I told her to call me next week and I'll take her to the water... one of my sacred place I like to go. Hopefully it will help her heal the ache of being so homesick.
Seriously - if you haven't read my blog entry about going to Hawai'i in 2009 with my friend Julie. Well, in the pictures, you'll see me sipping on a coconut. I believe I wrote something to the effect of "here's a picture of two coconuts". It's true. Sometimes I feel like I'm brown on the outside but white on the inside! LOL... truth is, I'm just me.... with all my awkward and quirkiness.
Anyway, I met this lady (before I got to have a massage!!!!!). Her name is Anna. Needless - to - say, she had questions about the massage school of which I was able to help her with. But, when I got to the counter to speak with her, I had this instant bond with her and I didn't quite know why - yet. It wasn't until she spoke a few words... I knew I was speaking to another island native. She was from Australia. It was quite hilarious when she kept talking, my Cook Island accent started coming back out. My co-workers were staring at me and laughing their butts off. Goodness, it felt weird to speak like that again, yet, I couldn't shut it off! My words were faltering until I accepted it and allowed it that it flowed without struggle. It was lovely.
When we hugged goodbye I felt that she was homesick and I told her "I know your heart is aching, and know that home is always going to be with you." She broke down in my arms... I held and embraced her while she cried. It was a beautiful little journey. I told her to call me next week and I'll take her to the water... one of my sacred place I like to go. Hopefully it will help her heal the ache of being so homesick.
Wednesday, August 20, 2014
R&R
***I found this as well, and thought I'd attempt to add some pictures, but the blog isn't allowing me to add photos. ugh! So, you all will have to deal with the only picture I have of that for not... kalo cereal. ****
Well, I went home to Hawai'i for R&R. AND, I also made a lovely stop to see my buddy Keaton and her family (of whom I am ETERNALLY grateful that they let me stay in their home), and also spent time with family in Lewisville. I must admit, it was nice to see some of my friends at church as well. So thankful for them.
Well, I went home to Hawai'i for R&R. AND, I also made a lovely stop to see my buddy Keaton and her family (of whom I am ETERNALLY grateful that they let me stay in their home), and also spent time with family in Lewisville. I must admit, it was nice to see some of my friends at church as well. So thankful for them.
Hawai'i was wonderful. It was so nice to be able to sit back and relax. AND, relax I did. I gained 7 pounds! ha ha ha!
I decided to just put a few pictures on here from my trip. I am soooo thankful that I got to stay with my brother Keoki, Foeata and family, and to my awesome brother-in-law who will soon graduate as a chef, and made homemade crab cakes! They were amazing!
Happy Day of Gratitude for Mothers!
Here is another draft that I had in my folder... this was from 2012. I was living with my brother Keoki and his family on O'ahu. (They supported me after I came back from overseas and also while I was going to Massage Therapy School.)
I heard my brother say that today was not only "Mother's Day", but a "day of gratitude for mommy". (speaking of my sister-in-law, Foeata.)
I think he nailed it right on the head that Mother's Day should definitely be a day of gratitude. Not that we have to commercialize every holiday, but simple little thoughts that are meaningful.
I heard my brother say that today was not only "Mother's Day", but a "day of gratitude for mommy". (speaking of my sister-in-law, Foeata.)
I think he nailed it right on the head that Mother's Day should definitely be a day of gratitude. Not that we have to commercialize every holiday, but simple little thoughts that are meaningful.
ROTC & Madison Happenings 2009
LOL! I was going through the "draft" folder of my blog and noticed I had an old picture of me in my Army greens. ("Class A's") Oh the days of ROTC! Also... I remember this bruised picture. This was during one of our ROTC lab days on Thursdays that we were playing paint ball against each other doing military tactics and movements. Man alive... this was the back of my arm, and it hurt so bad. I do have to say - it was a sweet bruise.
Play Day
Yesterday was a little play day for the students at International Institute of Massage Therapy. "Why", you might ask? "Because I said so"! ha ha ha ... just kidding.
Because I'm still substituting just reading over the material wasn't cutting it for the majority of the students. So, thinking quickly on my feet, I busted out the dry erase markers! As we went over the posterior distal leg muscles (a.k.a. the lower muscles on the back-side of the leg) I had them draw the outline of the muscles - the origin and insertion of the muscles on my legs and tell me what actions I needed to engage my foot/legs into in order to have the proper palpation and function of the muscles we were working on.
It was hilarious. Some of the students looked at me like I was freakin' crazy, and the others were having fun with it. There's one student who is so smart, that simple things have to be done in a fun way in order to make it "click" for him. When he was drawing on my legs, he was visually and physically able to get it. He was having fun now that Kinesiology was making sense for him. I guess if I have to donate my body to the learning of massage therapy, might as well have fun doing it, eh?!?
Because I'm still substituting just reading over the material wasn't cutting it for the majority of the students. So, thinking quickly on my feet, I busted out the dry erase markers! As we went over the posterior distal leg muscles (a.k.a. the lower muscles on the back-side of the leg) I had them draw the outline of the muscles - the origin and insertion of the muscles on my legs and tell me what actions I needed to engage my foot/legs into in order to have the proper palpation and function of the muscles we were working on.
It was hilarious. Some of the students looked at me like I was freakin' crazy, and the others were having fun with it. There's one student who is so smart, that simple things have to be done in a fun way in order to make it "click" for him. When he was drawing on my legs, he was visually and physically able to get it. He was having fun now that Kinesiology was making sense for him. I guess if I have to donate my body to the learning of massage therapy, might as well have fun doing it, eh?!?
Tuesday, August 19, 2014
Happy Monday and Substituting
Indeed my friends, it was an overall happy Monday.
I have been blessed with the chance to substitute the massage classes today through Wednesday. Not only will they keep me busy with teaching, but it also keeps me busy with learning as well. Because this is a different curriculum than when I was in school, it's neat to have to learn new things, and RE-learn some other things. Definitely keeps me on my toes.
I was able to reconnect with some friends that I took the ThetaHealing DNA 1 & 2 instructor's course with, and even got to say hello to two of the Lott boys and Andy. (All of whom work at the store.)
There are surely some other things that happened today that I don't really care to put on here, but just know - today was a good day.
Feeling a little bummed that a dear friend of mine will be out of reach for a while, but I know he'll be reading the blog every once in a while.
My apologies for a non-descriptive day. I'm sure tomorrow will have more adventures on it.
Much love and light to all.
XOXOXOXO
I have been blessed with the chance to substitute the massage classes today through Wednesday. Not only will they keep me busy with teaching, but it also keeps me busy with learning as well. Because this is a different curriculum than when I was in school, it's neat to have to learn new things, and RE-learn some other things. Definitely keeps me on my toes.
I was able to reconnect with some friends that I took the ThetaHealing DNA 1 & 2 instructor's course with, and even got to say hello to two of the Lott boys and Andy. (All of whom work at the store.)
There are surely some other things that happened today that I don't really care to put on here, but just know - today was a good day.
Feeling a little bummed that a dear friend of mine will be out of reach for a while, but I know he'll be reading the blog every once in a while.
My apologies for a non-descriptive day. I'm sure tomorrow will have more adventures on it.
Much love and light to all.
XOXOXOXO
Sunday, August 17, 2014
Soccer Game
Well, I originally had a whole other blog entry already done and prepared about how I was able to go to Sandy, Utah and watch the RSL vs. Seattle Sounders FC MLS teams play. To be quite honest, I don't think I want to rehash the whole thing again. ugh... sorry peeps. (By the way, I laughed my butt off when I found out who SL was playing against!)
Long story short, Friday night Ryan Hales called and asked if I had plans for the next day. Even though I did, I still told him "no" and asked what I could do for him and Britt. He stated that they had an extra ticket to go to Utah, to the Rio Tinto Soccer Stadium, and if I wanted to go, I could meet them at their home at 0700 the next morning. I said yes and the next day we were on our way.
Utah was pretty. I was definitely wearing too much clothes. I felt hot and felt like I was going to pass out. I mean, come on, I had jeans and a light loose flower shirt on and I was melting! So, I rolled up my jeans making big cuffs in them so they would be capris. I'm glad I was at least wearing slippers! Geez.
While I was down there I felt I needed to get a hold of another battle buddy of mine who I knew was going to be in Utah. (He lives in Arizona with his two girls. We went to BCT and AIT together and kept in touch through both of our deployments.) Anyway, I sent him a picture of the soccer stadium. He was excited I was in Utah and wanted to say HI, but I didn't have the time and he was still working.
I didn't quite understand why I felt I needed to let him know I was in town, but he told me that he was heading back out overseas in October. No gear up - just packing up and heading out. As I thought about why I should want to say hello, it dawned on me that he needs closure. I don't think I'll have the time to come down and see him off before he heads out to Ranger school in September, but I do think I owe it to him to see that I've moved forward and to understand the reasons why I couldn't stay in a friendship where I kept being pulled in emotionally only when he needed me and then pushed away when crap was going on in his life. It hurt, but I was done. It took a while to move passed him, but I'm glad I did. I would have missed out on a lot if I hadn't. I'm not a toy and couldn't deal with the ups and downs, being tossed like a yo-yo. Sad thing is, shame on me for letting him do that and thinking that he'll be different with me. He's a good man, but not for me.
Anyway - that wasn't in the original posting, but I guess for some reason, that information needed to be on here.
Before we got to our seats I saw there were a bunch of latino eateries. Man alive - the food smelled soooooooo good. I had horchata (which wasn't mixed right), a churro (which was stale) and a palette (which was divine!!!!!!!).
The rest of the travel home was pretty much spent with me dozing in and out with the lulling of the car engine. I'm really glad I was able to go and have fun with Ry and Bean. I've missed hanging out with my friends (even though most of them are already married with children). OH! And they are expecting their first baby. They are 7 weeks along. I'm really excited for them. They will make great parents.
Okay my darling friends - it was an enjoyable time to be with you all on here. I hope you enjoyed my randomness of blogging about my life that has nothing really to do with the soccer game. LOL
Love and light!
Friday, August 15, 2014
My Dearest Mr. Pili~
In my "Love Journal" I used to write to my future Mr. Someone and address him as if I was sitting there in front of him, holding his hands in mine, or me holding his face while calling him various "pet names". (Never quite understood "pet names", but I've found that I have succumbed to the art of the lovey nicknames. Ugh - ha ha ha ha ha) So, as to keep the tradition alive for my future Mr. Pili... here's what I want in a soul mate, a life mate, a life partner, my lifelong friend, my forever, my complimentary half (LOL), my everything.... my love.
My Dearest Mr. Pili ~
Hello my love. It'll be a beautiful day under snow, sunshine, hail or rain, when I get to be with you. I'm pretty sure you'd just want me to get to the point of what I want in someone, (the characteristics, the description, is he tall, short, dark skinned, white skinned, rich, etc...) and although I do have a long list of characteristics for you and for me - it's really pretty simple. But I'm sure I can make it complicated for you.
You see, I have this huge capacity to love, and have all this love inside of me, that I want to be able to whole heartedly give it to you, and have it reciprocated. I'd love for you to be goal oriented and driven, has things of the heart, goals, and future that are the same or similar (heading in the same direction) as me, and yet has hobbies and things that you like to do for YOU as well. I would love to know how I can support you in your goals and dreams, and how I can be there for you... whether as a silent support, a listening ear, a hand to wipe your tears, or arms to hold and love you through your days.
I don't want to just "live" with or without you. I want to grow with you. I want to build a life with you and your/our family. I want to be that old couple that still goes out on dates, walks hand in hand, and makes others blush. Because when were 90, and in wheelchairs, we'll be strolling down the lane with our great grandbabies pushing us while our fingers are interlinked and giggling while listening to them wish that when they are our age, they hope to have a love just like ours. And year after year, we find all the many reasons to fall in love with each other over and over again, and more and more each time.
I want to wake up every morning and go to sleep every night knowing that the person who is there next to me loves and trusts me enough to be "present" for me. Most importantly you will allow me to do the same for you.
I hope you can see me as a prize, someone worth wanting, loving, cherishing; because I see myself that way, and I see you as someone worth wanting, loving, cherishing, and working for to make you laugh and smile. I want you to be who you are and express the things that you need in all areas of your life, because I can't support you or love you the way you need to be supported and loved if I don't know.
Talk with me, spend time with me, tell me your dreams and fears.... let me love you through it.
I know I've stated a lot, but what it really comes down to is this; I want someone who will let me love him, support him, grow with him, and laugh with him... But above all, you'll be willing to do all these things for me.
I look forward to having you in my life.... one day.
So, until then.... my dearest Mr. Pili, whomever you are:
I Love You.
My Dearest Mr. Pili ~
Hello my love. It'll be a beautiful day under snow, sunshine, hail or rain, when I get to be with you. I'm pretty sure you'd just want me to get to the point of what I want in someone, (the characteristics, the description, is he tall, short, dark skinned, white skinned, rich, etc...) and although I do have a long list of characteristics for you and for me - it's really pretty simple. But I'm sure I can make it complicated for you.
You see, I have this huge capacity to love, and have all this love inside of me, that I want to be able to whole heartedly give it to you, and have it reciprocated. I'd love for you to be goal oriented and driven, has things of the heart, goals, and future that are the same or similar (heading in the same direction) as me, and yet has hobbies and things that you like to do for YOU as well. I would love to know how I can support you in your goals and dreams, and how I can be there for you... whether as a silent support, a listening ear, a hand to wipe your tears, or arms to hold and love you through your days.
I don't want to just "live" with or without you. I want to grow with you. I want to build a life with you and your/our family. I want to be that old couple that still goes out on dates, walks hand in hand, and makes others blush. Because when were 90, and in wheelchairs, we'll be strolling down the lane with our great grandbabies pushing us while our fingers are interlinked and giggling while listening to them wish that when they are our age, they hope to have a love just like ours. And year after year, we find all the many reasons to fall in love with each other over and over again, and more and more each time.
I want to wake up every morning and go to sleep every night knowing that the person who is there next to me loves and trusts me enough to be "present" for me. Most importantly you will allow me to do the same for you.
I hope you can see me as a prize, someone worth wanting, loving, cherishing; because I see myself that way, and I see you as someone worth wanting, loving, cherishing, and working for to make you laugh and smile. I want you to be who you are and express the things that you need in all areas of your life, because I can't support you or love you the way you need to be supported and loved if I don't know.
Talk with me, spend time with me, tell me your dreams and fears.... let me love you through it.
I know I've stated a lot, but what it really comes down to is this; I want someone who will let me love him, support him, grow with him, and laugh with him... But above all, you'll be willing to do all these things for me.
I look forward to having you in my life.... one day.
So, until then.... my dearest Mr. Pili, whomever you are:
I Love You.
Bearing of the Soul
Tonight I was able to talk with a very dear, loving, and wonderful person. Someone who I have come to know, learn about, learn from, and above love and be loved. This entry may not be understood or mean a lot to others, but for me, it dives deeper into my heart than I've ever let people in before. This is me, being totally vulnerable about something that is so dear to my heart... my future Mr. Pili. (Whomever he may be.) ;-)
First and foremost, I know that you all have come to understand that I tend to be a bit random at times. It seems the older I become the more my focus, attitude, priorities shift and change. I've noticed it even through my recent blogging.
Steven R. Covey once stated something to the effect of: Journal. Write. Because, you will see that what you write/journal about, is what means the most to you and where your thoughts/priorities have been/are. (Don't judge... I was totally paraphrasing in a Pili kind of way.)
Secondly, here's a random quote that I've had in my healing notebook:
"I have no significant competitors but myself." - Dan Kennedy
Now - on to the heart.
For years my idea of "love" was to get married young, have lots of babies, serve my husband, go to church, and take care of the family. Now, I don't want to say that's entirely off... but my views on some things have definitely changed.
You know... I think I'm going to write my "Bearing of the Soul" in letter form to my future someone.
READ THE NEXT ENTRY!
XOXOXOXOXOXOXO
First and foremost, I know that you all have come to understand that I tend to be a bit random at times. It seems the older I become the more my focus, attitude, priorities shift and change. I've noticed it even through my recent blogging.
Steven R. Covey once stated something to the effect of: Journal. Write. Because, you will see that what you write/journal about, is what means the most to you and where your thoughts/priorities have been/are. (Don't judge... I was totally paraphrasing in a Pili kind of way.)
Secondly, here's a random quote that I've had in my healing notebook:
"I have no significant competitors but myself." - Dan Kennedy
Now - on to the heart.
For years my idea of "love" was to get married young, have lots of babies, serve my husband, go to church, and take care of the family. Now, I don't want to say that's entirely off... but my views on some things have definitely changed.
You know... I think I'm going to write my "Bearing of the Soul" in letter form to my future someone.
READ THE NEXT ENTRY!
XOXOXOXOXOXOXO
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