Lots has happened since I last put any words or thoughts on here. I think a few of the highlights were:
- Visited my family in California. My family from Hawai'i came in and I got to surprise Keoki and his family. The children are so big and definitely finding their voice and expressing their likes and dislikes. Kind of weird. Lol!!!!
- I got super sick - vomiting, nausea, headaches, fatigue..... that lasted for a few weeks.
- I took a course in Phlebotomy which was really cool. I sit for my nationals next month. (I did it as an additional tool in the event that I can't do my job as a massage therapist any more. It was HIGHLY recommended that I get a different civilian set of skills just in case massage therapy is no longer in my cards to do. Sucks)
- I've been under a lot of pressure with INCAP (which was pulled on the 13th because my doctor said I can return to duty.... He didn't specify if it was civilian or military)
- My mom was diagnosed with thyroid cancer last week when she went in for a check up. She did her first round of radiation last Saturday and was in isolation for 6 days. (Thank you everyone for your good thoughts, positive vibes, unconditional love, and prayers.)
- Went to see the doctor yesterday. Got a shot in my right shoulder joint to rule out the acromium-clavicular joint as an issue. Doc has better diagnosed me with biceps tendinitis and SLAP (superior labral anterior to posterior) tear. Meaning the top portion of the tissue that supports the joint in the arm ball socket - has a tear.
- This Tuesday I go to Pocatello to help the BN historian with photography stuff from deployment, fires, and annual training. It's a good thing that I have over 20 THOUSAND photos since 2010. Sad thing is, I have 20 THOUSAND photos to go through and do write ups for at least 475 of those. I think I have some write ups from deployment, so that'll lessen my writing to only about 400 write ups to do. Holy cheese and crackers! That's a lot I didn't realize! Why!!!!!!!!! Lol
- Also, my first line leader (military), FINALLY decided to do my NCOER (Non-Commissioned Officer Evaluation Report). Funny thing is - he expects me to jump through hoops to get things done that he's been dragging his feet on when I've been asking since last MAY to get my initial rating and NCOER started. What a duche bead! For those of you reading this that I deployed with.... my first line leader is L. Hansen (not eagle eye). Ugh!
Anyway, that's just a bit of what's going on with me. I'm hoping all is going well with everyone else. I'm sure I'll make some smarty pants comments on here about surgery and the recovery process.
One Love to all! Happy happy!
Saturday, January 31, 2015
Thursday, January 15, 2015
In Goes the Good Air, Out Goes the bad....
This morning I got a call telling me my INCAP (military version of workman's comp), was pulled and canceled..... 2 days ago. Long story short - my goals for this year may be altered and pushed back for another year. I, unfortunately, may need to just get some kind of menial job... you know, the kind I'd rather do a million pushes instead of that kind of job. Ugh!
Okay, maybe I'm over exaggerating just a little. However, if you were told that you can return to duty or work, but not able to do your civilian job - how would you feel? I have a few people telling me that I can do this job or that job. I'm appreciative of it, however I don't want to just get a job just to get a job. I want something, even if it's temporary, that I can like myself for. Is that too much to ask? LOL
Anyway, I've been looking into schools etc, and a lot of them won't really work for me because of my upcoming military training schedule. We'll see how things turn out.
Okay - I've vented, cried, blogged, a division breathed. I know it'll be fine and get better. It's just a little discouraging sometimes.
Oh, and a random note- if you haven't heard Shotgun Rider by Tim McGraw, you're missing out. It's a cute song.
One love♡
Okay, maybe I'm over exaggerating just a little. However, if you were told that you can return to duty or work, but not able to do your civilian job - how would you feel? I have a few people telling me that I can do this job or that job. I'm appreciative of it, however I don't want to just get a job just to get a job. I want something, even if it's temporary, that I can like myself for. Is that too much to ask? LOL
Anyway, I've been looking into schools etc, and a lot of them won't really work for me because of my upcoming military training schedule. We'll see how things turn out.
Okay - I've vented, cried, blogged, a division breathed. I know it'll be fine and get better. It's just a little discouraging sometimes.
Oh, and a random note- if you haven't heard Shotgun Rider by Tim McGraw, you're missing out. It's a cute song.
Thursday, January 8, 2015
Idaho, Oh Idaho, Wherefore art Thou Idaho...
Don't get me wrong - I love my family. (How about that for a preface!)
However, it's really unique that I've noticed that the longer I was in California with my family, the more I realize that I have changed quite a bit from when I lived there over 10 years ago. Even though I have no immediate family near me, and I miss them a lot (especially when special occasions come along, or when I want to crawl in bed with my mom or sister-in-law and have some girl talk), I love being out here... in a different kind of beautiful - the country. Now, don't get me wrong, I can live easily anywhere in the world, but for some reason - I just prefer the peace and quiet.
I've been thinking these past few days how much I've noticed I've changed. The things that are important to me now versus being 23, the kinds of music, how I wear my hear, the kinds of clothes I wear, the jewelry I pick out. Some times I think I've lost my flare for really living, and I ask myself - what happened? Where's that girl who had such a love for life, who ventured off to far places JUST BECAUSE... I guess it's just part of growing up.
Since being back in Idaho, I've found that this time being back here is a little more depressing for me. It just contains some kind of forlorn loneliness that's haunting. Not that I want sympathy or someone to rescue me, these are just some thoughts I've had - that's all. I guess there comes a point when everyone gets tired of being alone. I'm definitely past that point.
Anyway - on to happier notes. I have drill this weekend and since I live more than 50 miles from where I am training, I get to have a hotel room for the three nights I'll be here. OH - and apparently I am the only female that is coming to this particular drill and so no one else will be with me! A hotel room! To myself! VACATION!!!!! Plus - it has a 24 hour indoor pool. I'm thinking of getting up early in the morning and going for a nice soak before drill to wake me up. We'll see.
If anyone is interested, there's a song by Tim McGraw that's been on my mental playlist in my head: Shotgun Rider
LOL!
Hope y'all like it!
One love~
However, it's really unique that I've noticed that the longer I was in California with my family, the more I realize that I have changed quite a bit from when I lived there over 10 years ago. Even though I have no immediate family near me, and I miss them a lot (especially when special occasions come along, or when I want to crawl in bed with my mom or sister-in-law and have some girl talk), I love being out here... in a different kind of beautiful - the country. Now, don't get me wrong, I can live easily anywhere in the world, but for some reason - I just prefer the peace and quiet.
I've been thinking these past few days how much I've noticed I've changed. The things that are important to me now versus being 23, the kinds of music, how I wear my hear, the kinds of clothes I wear, the jewelry I pick out. Some times I think I've lost my flare for really living, and I ask myself - what happened? Where's that girl who had such a love for life, who ventured off to far places JUST BECAUSE... I guess it's just part of growing up.
Since being back in Idaho, I've found that this time being back here is a little more depressing for me. It just contains some kind of forlorn loneliness that's haunting. Not that I want sympathy or someone to rescue me, these are just some thoughts I've had - that's all. I guess there comes a point when everyone gets tired of being alone. I'm definitely past that point.
Anyway - on to happier notes. I have drill this weekend and since I live more than 50 miles from where I am training, I get to have a hotel room for the three nights I'll be here. OH - and apparently I am the only female that is coming to this particular drill and so no one else will be with me! A hotel room! To myself! VACATION!!!!! Plus - it has a 24 hour indoor pool. I'm thinking of getting up early in the morning and going for a nice soak before drill to wake me up. We'll see.
If anyone is interested, there's a song by Tim McGraw that's been on my mental playlist in my head: Shotgun Rider
LOL!
Hope y'all like it!
One love~
Thursday, December 25, 2014
Family & Christmas
This year I've had the amazing opportunity to spend Christmas with my family in California. My second brother and his family arrived and so Christmas was had by two of my three brothers and their families and their in-laws, my parents and me. It really has been a great trip. Well worth it.
Of course I'll share some photos on there sooner or later. I don't have the opportunity to put pictures on my computer right now. However, one of the things I have been blessed to witness this holiday season, are the children. My nieces and nephews and just how grown they've become in their own individuality and as cousins bonding.
You know, there are definitely times this past week that I've been a little sad. Those nieces and nephews I've held and seen grow from infants to tweens, to teens, to young adults is at times overwhelming. There are moments when I think that IF I ever have the chance to have children, that they will be the only cousins their own ages, because everyone else will be so much older than them. It's strange to think that my oldest nephews are old enough to start having families of their own. Oh my goodness!
Anyway - enough of the sad talk of growing babies.
I hope all of you who are still reading this blog have had a wonderful Christmas this 2014! I'll share pictures later of the children putting on the Nativity (with the stylish throw-together costumes done by none-other than yours truly!), white elephant pictures of my nieces sulking from getting crummy gifts, to my cute little nephew who is having the telepathic conversations with me! I love looking at the pictures that he's showing of his adventures and his little complaints about his day! Oh the joy it's been!!!
I am truly best!
Have a safe and wonderful Christmas to one and all!
Much love and light, P~
Of course I'll share some photos on there sooner or later. I don't have the opportunity to put pictures on my computer right now. However, one of the things I have been blessed to witness this holiday season, are the children. My nieces and nephews and just how grown they've become in their own individuality and as cousins bonding.
You know, there are definitely times this past week that I've been a little sad. Those nieces and nephews I've held and seen grow from infants to tweens, to teens, to young adults is at times overwhelming. There are moments when I think that IF I ever have the chance to have children, that they will be the only cousins their own ages, because everyone else will be so much older than them. It's strange to think that my oldest nephews are old enough to start having families of their own. Oh my goodness!
Anyway - enough of the sad talk of growing babies.
I hope all of you who are still reading this blog have had a wonderful Christmas this 2014! I'll share pictures later of the children putting on the Nativity (with the stylish throw-together costumes done by none-other than yours truly!), white elephant pictures of my nieces sulking from getting crummy gifts, to my cute little nephew who is having the telepathic conversations with me! I love looking at the pictures that he's showing of his adventures and his little complaints about his day! Oh the joy it's been!!!
I am truly best!
Have a safe and wonderful Christmas to one and all!
Much love and light, P~
Sunday, December 21, 2014
Take Your Time... Sam Hunt
Christmas in Hanalei...
Okay - maybe not in Hanalei, however, I thought it was a catchy title... sort of.
Anyway, I saw this picture online and feel in love with it. Hanalei Pier is one of my favorite places in the world. I have a lot of really great memories growing up on Kaua'i, and especially of going to Hanalei with my family.
Just wishing you all a very Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! Hope you all have a safe Holiday!
Much love and light,
Pili~
Wednesday, October 29, 2014
Recovering...
These past few days have been a blur. I remember working on the INCAP paperwork, then that's pretty much it. Today was a bit better though - I knew I could sleep in a little, however, I almost forgot that I had to work at the armory today. Geez. The packet that I turned in was quite large. I had tons of supporting documents stating that what I was going through and doing was true. I laid out the finances, all the times I had pain management done, when I worked and for how many hours, what I got paid etc. It was intense. However, it made me smile when my Admin person said it was the "prettiest" packet he's ever sent up. We didn't want to give the medical board any room for error or doubt.
Sad to say, yesterday, I slept through my alarm and missed my physical therapy. I know that I have physical therapy tomorrow, so I'll be up nice and early for that one.
It's quite a unique thing - being an intuitive healer, some times there are moments when I can only go so far in helping to heal and change myself for the better. Then, that's when I have to call friends or go to people who I know can help me in an unbiased way. Tonight was that night for me. A friend I met in May when I was taking my ThetaHealing DNA 1 & 2 teacher's certifications worked on me via the telephone tonight. We got through some huge stuff and she helped me to release some of the hate, anger, and resentments I held against people and the situation of being injured... more so that they doctors and medical board put on my records that I had/have an "altered mental status" and am not of "mental sound"... a.k.a. crazy. LMAO!
Anyway, after release quite a bit of that - I felt tons better. I also had to get help in changing my belief that I had to hold on to the injuries to prove that I was not "crazy". Now - if you ask me... that really does sound like a "crazy" and silly thing to do. ha ha ha ha
I am just glad that Nikki was there for me and got to help me. I have a feeling that these next few days I'll continue to shift, change, and heal.
Here's a little love quote for the day:
Love and light...
Sad to say, yesterday, I slept through my alarm and missed my physical therapy. I know that I have physical therapy tomorrow, so I'll be up nice and early for that one.
It's quite a unique thing - being an intuitive healer, some times there are moments when I can only go so far in helping to heal and change myself for the better. Then, that's when I have to call friends or go to people who I know can help me in an unbiased way. Tonight was that night for me. A friend I met in May when I was taking my ThetaHealing DNA 1 & 2 teacher's certifications worked on me via the telephone tonight. We got through some huge stuff and she helped me to release some of the hate, anger, and resentments I held against people and the situation of being injured... more so that they doctors and medical board put on my records that I had/have an "altered mental status" and am not of "mental sound"... a.k.a. crazy. LMAO!
Anyway, after release quite a bit of that - I felt tons better. I also had to get help in changing my belief that I had to hold on to the injuries to prove that I was not "crazy". Now - if you ask me... that really does sound like a "crazy" and silly thing to do. ha ha ha ha
I am just glad that Nikki was there for me and got to help me. I have a feeling that these next few days I'll continue to shift, change, and heal.
Here's a little love quote for the day:
Love and light...
Monday, October 27, 2014
Overwhelmed...
It's 0201 and I'm a bit overwhelmed with the INCAP (equivalent to Workman's comp.) paperwork. This packet consist of 6 months of explaining finances, what happened to me when I got injured, why I can't perform my civilian job without pain, what I've been doing on my own to help with pain management, financial allotments, etc....
I've already broken down and cried - mainly because I think I'm just tired. After all, it is after 2 in the morning. (I'm here at work using two different computers to make this all happen.) I've got receipts strewn everywhere, scrap paper with numbers and figures of my finances, and the loss of finances because of unable to work, SOAP notes for massage therapy I've received, pictures from the Acupuncture I've received as well... it's quite the ordeal.
I even created a calendar with the work I've performed and all the treatments I've been receiving. It's pretty intense. I'm glad I've kept 3 calendars and they all coincide - made that part a little easier for me.
Anyway, I was about to put some stuff away when I looked in my little "Angel Numbers 101" book by Doreen Virtue. The time was 0201 when I looked at the clock, then looked that number up in my little book. This is what it said:
"201
You are co-creating the answers to your prayers with the words you say, think, and write. This is a message for you to choose loving and positive words so that your outcome is both loving and positive."
How appropriate, because right before that, I had my little mental melt down. ha ha ha
Blah... no worries.
Even though this is due tomorrow (I just got it late Friday), and I still have to run around and get SOAP notes from various places, I'm still smiling.
Love and light
I've already broken down and cried - mainly because I think I'm just tired. After all, it is after 2 in the morning. (I'm here at work using two different computers to make this all happen.) I've got receipts strewn everywhere, scrap paper with numbers and figures of my finances, and the loss of finances because of unable to work, SOAP notes for massage therapy I've received, pictures from the Acupuncture I've received as well... it's quite the ordeal.
I even created a calendar with the work I've performed and all the treatments I've been receiving. It's pretty intense. I'm glad I've kept 3 calendars and they all coincide - made that part a little easier for me.
Anyway, I was about to put some stuff away when I looked in my little "Angel Numbers 101" book by Doreen Virtue. The time was 0201 when I looked at the clock, then looked that number up in my little book. This is what it said:
"201
You are co-creating the answers to your prayers with the words you say, think, and write. This is a message for you to choose loving and positive words so that your outcome is both loving and positive."
How appropriate, because right before that, I had my little mental melt down. ha ha ha
Blah... no worries.
Even though this is due tomorrow (I just got it late Friday), and I still have to run around and get SOAP notes from various places, I'm still smiling.
Love and light
Tuesday, October 21, 2014
Thinking Out Loud - Ed Sheeran
Mr. Pili.... (lol)
How about... my darling friend?
Look up the title of this post, then let me know your thoughts.
Love and light...
How about... my darling friend?
Look up the title of this post, then let me know your thoughts.
Love and light...
Thursday, October 16, 2014
I'm Still Alive....
I had PT (physical therapy) this past Tuesday. It was my first of many visits. Long story short, we are hoping that it's only my biceps tendon that is out of the groove in the shoulder instead of something more drastic. Doing therapy on my own and having to cross-friction the tendon that is "out" of place to try to coax it to go back in.... is not very fun. The swelling and irritation, of what we're wanting it to do, sometimes makes me want to hit people for no reason! LOL
Seriously, when Dr. Liddle was working on my shoulder, I got teary eyed and noticed I had tears rolling down my cheek. I was having an emotional release. She also asked me why I waited so long to have work done on it - 1. I had a previous negative experience with another doctor, and 2. I didn't have the funds to pay out of pocket for it.
Tomorrow I have another PT appointment in the morning, then I'm on the table to get a massage to work the other muscles around the right shoulder, and then it's a mini spa day for one of my clients. I love what I do, and I'm also excited that my life is taking more of a turn into doing more energy work.
Okay - I'm about to start talking bubbles. I am going to bed. Even though I have 9 hours until it's time to wake up, I have a feeling I'm going to need it! ha!
Love and light,
XOXOXOXO (it was nice to hear your voice)
Seriously, when Dr. Liddle was working on my shoulder, I got teary eyed and noticed I had tears rolling down my cheek. I was having an emotional release. She also asked me why I waited so long to have work done on it - 1. I had a previous negative experience with another doctor, and 2. I didn't have the funds to pay out of pocket for it.
Tomorrow I have another PT appointment in the morning, then I'm on the table to get a massage to work the other muscles around the right shoulder, and then it's a mini spa day for one of my clients. I love what I do, and I'm also excited that my life is taking more of a turn into doing more energy work.
Okay - I'm about to start talking bubbles. I am going to bed. Even though I have 9 hours until it's time to wake up, I have a feeling I'm going to need it! ha!
Love and light,
XOXOXOXO (it was nice to hear your voice)
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