Recovering...

These past few days have been a blur. I remember working on the INCAP paperwork, then that's pretty much it. Today was a bit better though - I knew I could sleep in a little, however, I almost forgot that I had to work at the armory today. Geez. The packet that I turned in was quite large. I had tons of supporting documents stating that what I was going through and doing was true. I laid out the finances, all the times I had pain management done, when I worked and for how many hours, what I got paid etc. It was intense. However, it made me smile when my Admin person said it was the "prettiest" packet he's ever sent up. We didn't want to give the medical board any room for error or doubt.


Sad to say, yesterday, I slept through my alarm and missed my physical therapy. I know that I have physical therapy tomorrow, so I'll be up nice and early for that one.


It's quite a unique thing - being an intuitive healer, some times there are moments when I can only go so far in helping to heal and change myself for the better. Then, that's when I have to call friends or go to people who I know can help me in an unbiased way. Tonight was that night for me. A friend I met in May when I was taking my ThetaHealing DNA 1 & 2 teacher's certifications worked on me via the telephone tonight. We got through some huge stuff and she helped me to release some of the hate, anger, and resentments I held against people and the situation of being injured... more so that they doctors and medical board put on my records that I had/have an "altered mental status" and am not of "mental sound"... a.k.a. crazy. LMAO!


Anyway, after release quite a bit of that - I felt tons better. I also had to get help in changing my belief that I had to hold on to the injuries to prove that I was not "crazy". Now - if you ask me... that really does sound like a "crazy" and silly thing to do. ha ha ha ha


I am just glad that Nikki was there for me and got to help me. I have a feeling that these next few days I'll continue to shift, change, and heal.


Here's a little love quote for the day:





Love and light...

Overwhelmed...

It's 0201 and I'm a bit overwhelmed with the INCAP (equivalent to Workman's comp.) paperwork. This packet consist of 6 months of explaining finances, what happened to me when I got injured, why I can't perform my civilian job without pain, what I've been doing on my own to help with pain management, financial allotments, etc....

I've already broken down and cried - mainly because I think I'm just tired. After all, it is after 2 in the morning. (I'm here at work using two different computers to make this all happen.) I've got receipts strewn everywhere, scrap paper with numbers and figures of my finances, and the loss of finances because of unable to work, SOAP notes for massage therapy I've received, pictures from the Acupuncture I've received as well... it's quite the ordeal.

I even created a calendar with the work I've performed and all the treatments I've been receiving. It's pretty intense. I'm glad I've kept 3 calendars and they all coincide - made that part a little easier for me.

Anyway, I was about to put some stuff away when I looked in my little "Angel Numbers 101" book by Doreen Virtue. The time was 0201 when I looked at the clock, then looked that number up in my little book. This is what it said:

"201

You are co-creating the answers to your prayers with the words you say, think, and write. This is a message for you to choose loving and positive words so that your outcome is both loving and positive."

How appropriate, because right before that, I had my little mental melt down. ha ha ha

Blah... no worries.

Even though this is due tomorrow (I just got it late Friday), and I still have to run around and get SOAP notes from various places, I'm still smiling.

Love and light

Thinking Out Loud - Ed Sheeran

Mr. Pili.... (lol)


How about... my darling friend?


Look up the title of this post, then let me know your thoughts.


Love and light...

I'm Still Alive....

I had PT (physical therapy) this past Tuesday. It was my first of many visits. Long story short, we are hoping that it's only my biceps tendon that is out of the groove in the shoulder instead of something more drastic. Doing therapy on my own and having to cross-friction the tendon that is "out" of place to try to coax it to go back in.... is not very fun. The swelling and irritation, of what we're wanting it to do, sometimes makes me want to hit people for no reason! LOL


Seriously, when Dr. Liddle was working on my shoulder, I got teary eyed and noticed I had tears rolling down my cheek. I was having an emotional release. She also asked me why I waited so long to have work done on it - 1. I had a previous negative experience with another doctor, and 2. I didn't have the funds to pay out of pocket for it.


Tomorrow I have another PT appointment in the morning, then I'm on the table to get a massage to work the other muscles around the right shoulder, and then it's a mini spa day for one of my clients. I love what I do, and I'm also excited that my life is taking more of a turn into doing more energy work.


Okay - I'm about to start talking bubbles. I am going to bed. Even though I have 9 hours until it's time to wake up, I have a feeling I'm going to need it! ha!


Love and light,


XOXOXOXO (it was nice to hear your voice)

Dr.'s & Shoulder...

Today I went to the Orthopaedics to FINALLY have my right shoulder checked by the doctor.... I know... surprise, surprise. It was a little weird to go there. I started having anxiety, my hands were shaking, I couldn't put some things together while looking at my intake forms, and it took me just about 30 minutes to get it done. (It was only 5 pages. lol)


Long story short, I had to do some muscle testing on myself to find out why I was feeling uneasy. Well, it's because I believed that "ALL DOCTORS were evil", and that this "doctor will treat me like the last doctor" I saw in Boise. I had to release that and download myself with the belief that "all doctors are NOT evil, and that I could have the discernment on who I should be seen by." When the shift and change was happening in my body, I started to feel peaceful. I was letting go of the resentment I had from the previous doctor, and opening my heart that this new doctor might be able to help me. It was fantastic.


So, what did we find? Well, we were able to take an x-ray and find that there might be a separation of the acromion and clavicle tendon. However, we won't know for a little while. But, I do have biceps tendonitis/INFLAM, and get to start my physical therapy next week Tuesday.


I had to really think why it took me so long to get into the doctors.... and, here is what it came down to:


1. Fear of not finding anything wrong and proving the other doctor right when he said I had/have an "Altered mental status" - basically, "Crazy".


2. Fear of having to pay for all of the medical bills out of pocket.


3. And, I think part of it was a fear of getting better.... then that would mean that I am wrong with knowing how I feel/felt.


Man alive - I really had to release those beliefs, because they were not serving me in my Highest and Best.


Do you believe that we can be held back from achieving things like... GREATNESS, because we have beliefs that tell us or teach us otherwise? Who the crap needs those kinds of thoughts or beliefs to run their lives like that? It's so debilitating.


I am so thankful that I have been blessed with tools for life that I have been taught. It has breathed fresh air for me where I've felt so stuck and stagnant in old beliefs, habits, mind process that isn't always good.


Anyway, my darling friends and family, I love you all.


Much love~

Beautiful Dance....

Here's a lovely Bachata danced to John Legend's song, and one of my favorites: "Tonight". Hope you all enjoy.

Mini Spa Day

This past Saturday I was able to do a mini spa day for a client and her friend. It was nice because the client I worked on had never had a massage before. This was her first experience. We first started them with an introduction to the room the massage was going to be held, and the products available to create their own mud detoxing product. Then it was the massage with hot towels, mud application then wipe down, and ending the experience with a 15 minute relaxation time in the infrared sauna.

I hope you all enjoy some of the pictures. I attempted to capture the essence of the place but they don't do it any justice. Much love and light, XOXOXOXO

A small view of the various products. i.e. Kelp, Bentonine clay, coffee etc.

Various mud application carrier for the mud product creation.

View of various essential oils for the clients to choose from as part of their service or mud application.

A small sample of a ready made product (Mediterranean Algae)

Various angles of the massage room.

Another view of the base carriers, oils, and detox products/mixtures.

Change

I was looking for a quote to put on my website - something inspirational, perhaps about change, perhaps about life, or even healing. This last week I have been loving guided to step into more of my intuitive role and follow my path as an energy work.


Change - at time it may be scary, but man alive, instead of pushing against it and pray for it not to happen, I've been asking God to help me and give me strength in the process. So, I hope you enjoy this quote by Tolstoy and take it to heart.... change first has to start with self.

“Everyone thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing himself.”
― Leo Tolstoy

Out of State Adventure

Well, just found out yesterday that I'll be on a little adventure in October. It'll be nice to get away for a few days. Anyone want to guess where? Does anyone care? Ha ha ha....

Love and light,
XOXOXOXO

Beautiful Quote on Life

A few months ago I was looking at a unique magazine that had wonderful quotes. This particular one stood out to me as it was something that I was struggling with... "my purpose in life". At times I feel like I have to have this huge mission in life to make a large impact on the world, when in actuality, I just have to be me.


By each of our acts of kindness, love, being who we are in the world.... it's enough. We are enough. By our small every day living we have the chance to impact lives. Some times it's the lives that are closest to us that we impact the most, and mean the most to us. For example: children, students, colleagues, the mailman/woman, the UPS person, the Starbucks cashier, the little old lady down next door, the person taking your order at Chick-fil-A. A kind word, smile, expression of gratitude goes a long way.


Most importantly, being kind to ourselves can have the biggest impact on the world.


Love yourself. Love who you are. Love who you are becoming. Love that each day is a new day. Love that you all are loved by me. Love that you are all loved by your higher source.... God, Buddha, Allah, Heavenly Father, Source, Creator, Great Spirit....


Above all, know that you deserve and are enough to receive that love.


Much love and light....


XOXOXOXO