Friday, August 15, 2014

New Blog Title

I know some of you may be wondering what's up with the new blog title, and all I have to say.... it's about time.


I chose "The Evolution of Ms. Pili", because that's who I am and what I've been doing. Evolving, changing, becoming better.... becoming me. For the rest of my life, I want to continue getting better. Learning and growing. I hope I will have someone that would want to grow and evolve with me as well.


There are times in our lives, when we don't always like to see the bad, the ugly, the truth, of who and what we are, and why we do some of the things we do. This past year I've worked on stripping away the labels and expectations of others and myself, and took a vulnerable look at what me. I won't lie, I didn't like a lot of things that I was seeing. It seems that I had a look good/victim/blame other people for what was happening to me, kind of attitude instead of taking responsibilities for the things I was/have been attracting in my life. And other times, I only heard the things that I wanted to hear, and not what the real truth behind some people's words.


I think that is why I am a bit more cautious with things. Especially things of the heart. I mentally know what is right and what "should" happen, but who am I to attempt "WHAT IS" or other's "CHOICES" for their lives when they have nothing to do with me. Well, because 1) I love people and don't like for others to be hurt. I would rather suffer than to be a cause of someone else's suffering. (Stupid belief system!) 2) Being loved by another is scary... I'm usually always waiting for the other person to get bored and leave, or for the fight or flight syndrome to kick in for me. What a horrible way to live! 3) Not that loving someone or being loved is a bad or hard thing... but sometimes, being loved without expectations can be overwhelming. I almost don't know what to do with it most of the time. Ugh... oh well.


Aaaaaaannnnnnnnnnddddddddd, I think I totally just went off on a random tangent. LOL


I hope you all enjoyed that. Okay - it's late, and I've got to get to sleep. Enjoy the new blog title and all my little entries. XOXOXO

A Day Full of Happenings

I decided to start tackling my receipt piles that have been forming in various areas... my car, my receipt box, my purse, my "To File" pile, my "taxes" pile.... etc. It's pretty ridiculous. I can honestly tell you that sometimes having your own business is a bit more time consuming than most think. Not to mention you have to be self driven and motivated. I'm not saying that I'm not, just some days are a bit harder to stay motivated in things than other days.  Ugh...


Okay, I'm done complaining. While organizing, highlighting, and writing on the receipts, I had Pandora playing in the background. I found myself singing along to an island jam that I fell in love with when I was visiting O'ahu a few years ago. Here's the link:


She Gimmie Love - Collie Buddz


For some of you who have not heard this song, I hope you enjoy the chill vibe you get from it and appreciate the love you receive from your significant other. And for those who are single - I can totally relate to you - it's still a good jam. ENJOY!


Moving right along - this morning started pretty early with my internal alarm clock woke me about 0605, 20 minutes before my phone and watch alarms were to go off. I stayed in bed and listened to repeat messages on my phone and lost track of time. I jumped up, got in the shower, ate breakfast and got picked up by Jasmine to head to the school. There, we prepped for the Health Fair gathering a massage table, massage chair, and packing the event suitcase with items such as paper towels, hand sanitizers, cleaning wipes, sheets, a bunch of promotional brochures etc, and printed coupons with customized event information on it.


At the event, I ran into two of my battles from my unit. The first was 2LT Wilson. He was there representing Gold's Gym, of course he's attempting to get me to sign up.... and I have a tour of the facility next week. LOL.... Actually, I've been wanting to work out at a gym again. I've missed it since being overseas. The second person was SFC Snyder, of whom I deployed with. He wasn't selling anything - he is an employee of the business we were there with. It was really neat to see them both in the "civilian" world.


The Health Fair really was a success. I was there with two other professional massage therapists that I work with and most of the massage therapy students and a recent graduate. It was nice to be with them at such a fun event. We were busy the whole time with tons of different people. I got to trade on and off working on people with Shari - our recent graduate. (I was also able to get on the table where she worked on me for a few minutes and then I had her release my sub-scapula. If you've never had that done - man alive, it hurts like a ... well, you fill in the blanks.) There were a few people who have had issues with different massage therapists in the back, but hopefully I was able to change their mind that massage does not have to be painful.


Speaking of painful, well - not really, but Darby (another recent graduate) was at the facility when we got back from the event. I hugged her neck and we chit-chatted for a little bit, and then she ended up working on my back for about 30 minutes. I got up to the studio, and when she started working on me, I wanted to burst into tears. I had a lot of emotions that were coming up, but just weren't releasing from my body. It was crazy. You see, Darby is definitely a special woman, who I usually go to if I need work done. She's worked on my body, and knows how to help it release - physically and emotionally. When she massages, she massages with unconditional love, it's a beautiful thing. Although the body work was brief, it still made a huge impact on my body. Oh, and did I ever feel it when I went to work out this evening.


After a bunch of time passed by with working on my tax receipts, my "getting ready for Zumba" alarm went off indicating I had 30 minutes to change, get ready, and drive across town for Zumba class. It was a blast tonight. However, there were a few songs I didn't know, and OH MY LANTA, it was stinking hilarious to watch my instructor up there dancing one of the new songs. She was such a ham! I couldn't stop laughing! People thought I was crazy.... I didn't care, I was having fun. Then there are booty rolling moves that I just stood there and stared. I was like "uh uh... no no... not a bloody chance".... but once I got into the groove of the song, I started hamming it up a little too. It really was a fun night, and a fun day overall. (My body is a bit tight and sore - I wish I could have gone to the hot springs tonight to soak.)


This evening I was also able to talk to my parents on the phone and my second brother, Keoki. Yesterday was his birthday, so I called to wish him a belated birthday since I was out on the farm with no reception. Goodness, he was telling me stories that had me busting a gut. I don't think it would be appropriate to share his experiences with everyone here, but if you know my brother, it was funny. I really miss that brother and family. They live on O'ahu. I stayed with them after overseas and while I was going to massage therapy school. From their house, it took two hours one way (door to door) to get to my massage therapy school. I just spent most of the time on the bus studying. Granted, that was only if I wasn't sleeping, or watching a movie on my ipod.


Just a little personal note, I'll share that this past week I've been feeling a little reclusive. Keeping more to myself. Almost going internally. It's almost a strange place to be, but yet, very much needed. *sigh* Tomorrow, since I don't have an clients, I am going to make sure I do something for myself, but insure that it's out of my "normal" comfort zone. Who knows... I might end up at the four letter "M" word. LOL (Anyone catch on to it?)


Anyway, one love to all.


AND for "Gums".... XOXOXOXOXO
Glad I could make you laugh and smile.

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

A Farm Filled Day

As I stated in my previous entry, today I went to Jasmine's to help on her little farm. Not only were we constantly herding little goats every so often, we were moving hay bales, wood, various sizes of brick, a tire, cleaned up shards of broken glass, created a little duck hutch, a new summer goat hutch, and moved ducks and chickens around as needed for fencing purposes etc. It was a fun day.


For din-din we had the infamous Lucy's pizza. Well, we really had a calzone that we shared, with cheesy breadsticks and a small salad. Man alive, I can't even tell you how hungry I was! I couldn't believe it! I ate half of my portion of the breadsticks, half of the calzone (which is about 1/4 of a pizza), and a small to-go box of salad stuffed to the top. It's amazing how working in the sun most of the day drains you and miraculously increases your appetite. LOL


Anyway, I was thankful that I got to help. Tomorrow will be the Health Fair at one of the bigger work businesses in the local area. I'll be there to help educate and promote massage therapy for myself and for the school. Hopefully this will help pick up business a little bit. I'm not prepared for it at all, as an individual practitioner. I would normally have had little gift certificates or coupons there, or a little brochure about my techniques and training etc. HOWEVER, I don't, and I'm okay with it.


This evening has been full of rain, lightning, and very little thunder. I usually like to sit outside or by a window and watch the lightning shows, but very rarely do I ever like driving at night in the rain... especially when there's a lot of lightning. It makes me really nervous. I don't enjoy that at all. Ugh... LOL, but on a brighter side, it was pretty to see the lightning light up the sky!


Okay, I'm off to bed. Waking up at 0600. One love to all!

A Little Bit of Healing

Since the last blog entry, I believe I didn't fall asleep that night until about 4 am yesterday morning... or at least it was around 0400. Who's keeping track anyway, right? LOL!


I woke up about 10:30 am and couldn't get out of bed. I eventually did, soaked in the tub about 10 minutes, then was running out the door. (surprise, surprise) I went to Jasmine's home to let the dogs into the house as there was a crew working on re-fencing her small farm. It was a little strange to see all these vehicles and guys at her house. I don't know - just strange.


I got to the facility about 1:30 pm to set up for two 90 minute massages. Since leaving for military schooling in April, I've only massaged, not including the two I did yesterday, MAYBE only 5 or 6 times. That's pretty sad. Needless-to-say, business has significantly declined since then. I don't blame it, how can anyone rely on someone who was consistently gone for just about 4 months. Sheesh. I'll be honest, there were times I was thinking of just closing up shop and going back to doing admin work that I've done since I was 18.... geez - I'm getting "wiser". ha ha ha ha ha ha... but who's keeping track anyway. Age is just a state of mind.


The two massages were awesome. My first client was a regular. He owns a Chinese restaurant and brought me some sweet and sour chicken with friend rice for me to eat. Little did he know, I was on a week of NO EATING MEAT - I know people, don't go into shock. It went from last Tuesday to yesterday. It was actually pretty nice to do that again. I think I'm going to do it at least once a year to give my body an animal protein break, so it can process and heal. Most people I've spoken to who knew about this were a bit appalled by it. But you see, there were about two years in high school (at Kamehameha Schools) that I was a vegetarian. The food was actually pretty good.


After the massages, there was a healing circle that one of the massage student puts on - Cultivating Meditations - you can find it on Facebook. (By the way, I'm still not on FB, and am STILL loving my privacy.) I got out there a little late but when I got there, I was able to jump right in. There were nine people all in attendance, and all in some kind of a healing modality or intuitive in their own way. The purpose of the Healing Circle is to bring together like-minded people in an exchange of healing, and unconditional love, to raise the vibration of the area, and a place where others can practice their modalities.


Well, last night was Magic. When asked what I would like to have worked on, I stated that I'd like to have healing on my heart. Not just my physical, but my emotional/ethereal heart. Wow, the things that people saw and felt and the things I saw and felt as well.... it felt beautiful to receive a healing for myself. I think that is something that is beautiful in and of itself. To allow others in my space, to ask for AND to allow myself to receive a healing. I won't go into details as for what was shared because it's something special to me. However, I can say that last night's healing circle couldn't have come at a better time. THANK YOU ALL!


After the healing circle, Jasmine and I went to grab something to eat since I hadn't eaten since about 1230 earlier that day. I had a vegetarian burrito with horchata. (I know - vegetarian burrito - blasphemy!) ha ha ha ha ha ha Well, I can honestly say, it was pretty good. P.S. Horchata is one of my favorite drinks.


Stayed at Jasmine's last night. Went to the farm to see how the fencing was coming along from earlier that day. And, part of the fence was down. Hmmmm.... "hopefully the goats didn't get out" is what I told Jazzy. Anyway, this morning, Jasmine comes into my room and tells me that she had to herd the goats back to the yard because part of the back fence was down that we didn't see late last night. She had them on somewhat of a leash, then they took off... tripped her up, spun her around, and she landed on her back being pulled by the goats. (Something you'd see in a cartoon for sure!) Man alive, I wish I had a was awake and had a camera!


Anyway, today I'm back out to the farm to help her herd the animals while the guys fence. Good luck to us, eh?!?


XOXOXOXO

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Still Awake and Full of Emotions

Tonight I worked out doing Zumba, and the playlist was AMAZING! Lots of reggaeton, salsa, salsa/hip hop, and just good hard driving music with a heavy beat. Needless to say, it was really hot and I pushed myself pretty hard. However, during the third song I realized that I had some latent emotions that were coming up for me. So what do you do when emotions come up that you don't quite know what to do with?.... you push harder, right? RIGHT!


By the end of the night, I was so exhausted it felt amazing.


The only thing - it's just about midnight, and I'm still awake and full of emotions. I've been listening to music to see if that would help me, but I just seem to be drawn to more of the sad heart wrenching songs. You know, the kind that slaps you in the face, rips your heart out, and then leaves you crying alone in your bed with sheets and blankets that will never hold you tight enough.


So, I'm going back to listening to music that will hopefully help me sleep... but I have a feeling it'll still keep me awake.... full of emotions.... and nowhere to put them.

Monday, August 11, 2014

YAY!!!!!!!!

A few months ago Jasmine bought me this ring... it's our "sisters" ring. She has one like it but the garnet portion is a little more angle like a triangle. The weekend during graduation I took the ring off, at night, and put it on the bed next to me. Long story short, I've been freaking out about it because I felt sick to my stomach not knowing if I lost it or what. I looked at our facility, at home, in my car, and Jasmine and I even looked in the room I stayed in... undid the bed and everything.


Well, last night, I had a feeling to look in my duffle bag that I had while staying at Jasmine's just in case the ring fell in there. This evening, I gingerly began undoing the duffle bag shaking out each item of clothes and nothing. I then went to the side duffle pocket where my undies and socks were and as I took them out, I saw something fall deeper in the pocket. I moved things around.... and TA DA! There it was! Here's the ring I wear on my right ring finger.







Phew... Thank goodness! Happy happy!

Happy Graduation and Welcome to Idaho!

The first weekend in August was the graduation for the night students from the International Institute of Massage Therapy. I have been honored to have had the opportunity to know, grow with, and love these amazing women who graduated. What made this graduation extra special, was that my parents were able to come in from California. It was really awesome. I felt like I was able to rediscover who they were as I've been doing a lot of self work. Pretty neat indeed.

 This first picture is of me showing Jasmine how to close the ends of a haku that we were making. It was really neat to be able to do that for the students and to teach Jasmine the art I learned from my Tutu Lady.


Jasmine completing her first haku lei.
Jasmine's first lei.
One of Pili's leis.
Dad, P, Patsi, and Mom
P, Jasmine & Mom - our faces exploded with .... something!

Sisters Jasmine & Pili


On Sunday night, day after graduation, mom and dad came over to Jasmine's and we had a nice little dinner that Jasmine cooked. (Can't remember exactly all we ate, but it was yummy!) I brought the guitar over and I was also able to play some music for them. It was kind of embarrassing that I've forgotten how to sing and play a lot of the songs that I've written, however, they thought it was fun. Phew! LOL

Monday we ventured out to see Shawna, Ikaika, and Kaiwainohia. (Ikaika is my first cousin. Our mom's are sisters.) First, it started with a little trip to Mt. Olympus (the wellness facility where I have my massage studio). Mom and dad wanted to see Jasmine, and I was able to get them on the T-Zone (giggle machine), and then in the ionic footbath. Man alive, can we say that they both had a lot of funk come out of the pancreas, kidneys etc. Hey, it was better to get it out than to stay in their body! 

We then ventured and took our time heading to Twin Falls, Idaho, where we stopped at the Shoshone Falls. It was beautiful and sacred at the same time. Due to time constraints, we didn't get to stay very long, but man - it was beautiful! I'd forgotten how sensitive and in-tune my mom was, however, when we were driving down to the overlook, she could feel the energy of the large rock formations and felt healing. It was pretty neat to witness and to share in that experience with her and my dad.

Here's a picture my mom took of me at the falls. It looks like I was upset, but I promise, I wasn't.... my face just naturally looks like that sometimes. HA HA HA HA HA

Mom took this picture of me at the Shoshone falls.... wish I had a picture of the falls.

When we finally got to Shawna and Ikaika's, Shawna had rice and shoyu chicken cooking on the stove. That was so nice and the food was amazing! I can't believe the last time I was there was a little over a year ago when Kawainohia was born. I was in the hospital just a couple of hours after he was born. He's sooooo cute and so huge. It was an amazing experience to sit and chat, play with baby, and mom and I even danced hula. Loved it! I can't believe I don't dance hula anymore. Weird.... because I love it!

Shawna, Ikaika, and Kawainohia

Kissy kissy

Auntie Pili and Kawainohiahiwaokahaku a.k.a. Kawainohia. (Geez, what a mouth full! LOL!!!!!!)





 A few years ago my dad came up for a hula show that I danced in with Auntie Lee Shroeder. It was winter and we were having a hula show! It was kind of weird and funny to have people wearing tons of layers. Oh well, welcome to the mainland yeah? lol

Anyway, during that time, Aunt Priscilla, Grandpa Rock's sister, was over there in Idaho visiting for a few weeks. When she and my dad met, it was almost love at first dinner. You see, growing up, my dad came a humble farming background where food was sometimes eaten very sparingly. He and his siblings would sometimes take food off each others plate while the prayer was being said! So, when we sat down for dinner, Aunt Priscilla told my dad that they would get a long just fine as long as he stayed out of her food. My dad busted out with a hearty laugh. They became instant friends for life!
Dad and Aunt Priscilla
On Tuesday, we stayed around the local area doing things such as letting mom and dad experience some of the lovely things about Idaho that's unique to our area. One of those experiences were eating Reed's Dairy Ice Cream, drinking their yummy/creamy chocolate milk, and cheese curds. I wish I had a picture of mom and dad's face upon eating the ice cream. It was classic! Their ice cream is just so creamy that you can't help but love it! Mom wanted to take our picture, so dad and I paused with our lips in the ice cream waiting for mom to snap the shot. If she took any longer, we would have had to have forgotten the whole thing.... our lips were cold and freezing from being on the ice cream!

P & Dad showing off our ice cream, chocolate milk, and cheese curds.

Pili eating a HUGE Reed's Dairy double scoop Huckleberry Ice Cream.
 On Wednesday, I was able to take my mom and dad to Utah - we took our time of course. I took them to the Dancing Crane Imports (one of my favorite places), and then just cruised around looking at things and chilled until 10pm when the Amtrak office was open. We found out that their train was delayed for 4 hours due to flooding going on in the various states. It was a nice send off for my mom and dad. I'm really glad they had a chance to come and visit for a while. I'm hoping that many more of my family members will be able to come and visit as well. It gets only without family.

Thanks mom and dad for visiting!


Love you both!

Dreamer


As most of you can tell, I've been music surfing lately. Well, actually, I've been going through a bunch of music I've had on my computer, and many of the songs I've put on here, I haven't heard in a while, or they have been applicable to things going on in my life as of late.

Here's a song for Mr. Pili.... thoughts to consider. xoxoxo

A Note and A Quote...

Some of you may know that I used to also have a little quote book full of "love quotes". Not JUST because I'm a secret hopeless romantic, but that I have always loved the idea of loving people. At times I think there are too many people who forget what it feels like to love, how to love, how to receive love, that they deserve love, are worthy to be loved, and to love/be loved without any expectations from themselves or others.

When times get tough in relationships, sometimes we forget to love the other person. At times, we also forget to love ourselves.

Here's a small quote I found in my calendar that I've carried with me for a while.... it's not in the quote book, but I thought it was applicable to put on here. AND, it's not about love, but then again, it is.

"Anyone can get angry - that is easy. But to get angry with the right person, to the right extent, at the right time, for the right reason, and in the right way is no longer something easy that anyone can do." - Aristotle

Love and light to all... Happy Monday!

Friday, August 8, 2014

Fly Me To The Moon


There's nothing like the original from Frank Sinatra, however, I also like these two renditions as well. This is a beautiful song that's been on my mind for about a week now. Mr. Pili girl will understand. Love you!