Birthdays and West Yellowstone

Yesterday was my mom's birthday and also Brittney Jo (Hanson) Hales' birthday. It was a nice day. If I ever needed to take a day for myself, I can say that yesterday would have been that day for me. It started with a massage 2 hour massage from 8 - 10am. (Granted, I didn't fully relax and check out because it was a Functional Change report for one of the students, and I was her body to work on. Although I was giving her feedback and helping her to feel confident when it comes to working on the body - she did well, and I got to get worked on for a bit.)

I was then able to have brunch with Miss Jody, and Miss Kellee from Roberts. It was nice to sit, eat, and talk. (I don't really have a lot of friends I go and do things with, so meeting new people and getting to know them is always a nice thing.)

That afternoon I met Brittney and Ryan at their home for a lovely trip to Rexburg to pick up Bybers and then off to West Yellowstone to attend the Playmill. The last time the four of us went up to West Yellowstone was 2 years ago a few months after I got home from Hawai'i. It was nice to go up (although I took a nap all the way up there), and eat at the same little diner and see Beauty and the Beast. It was a packed house at the theatre, but it was also pretty fun. Lots of the characters cracked me up... and some of them irritated the peanuts out of me. (The really girlie girls that fall all over and swoon over Gaston... irrrrrrrrrriiiiiiiiiiitating. lol)

At the end of the show, as we were walking to the car, I peeked into one of the shop windows and got totally giddy! The store was selling gem stones! I got so excited and asked my friends if it was alright to go in for a quick look. Well, we went in, and as I was oohing and aaaahing, I was educating my friends on the healing properties of the different stones. It was a lot of fun. I even saw that some of those stones were really cheap! Good quality and cheap!!!!!!!!! I made a mental note to come back for Christmas shopping. It was lovely.

The drive back to Idaho Falls was a long one. I stayed awake and talked to the drivers to make sure they stayed awake while driving. Idaho Falls couldn't come fast enough, but we made it back there a little after 11pm. By the time I ended up getting home it was about midnight.

I can't say that I was totally excited about getting up early this morning to work on one of the students (her massage was from 10 - 12)... yeah - it was rough to get OUT of bed. ha ha ha... However, it was a great massage. She definitely needed it.

Anyway, that's the majority of the day yesterday and today. I have a workout in the early morning at 6am. I am still at work and will probably stay the night as I get some things together for tomorrow. (I have to go to the armory to get some medical paperwork for my shoulder, and to see when and what time my sit-down appointment is to see if there are any other open MOS for our local area.) I'm also watching a friend's children tomorrow. Well, she's a friend of Jasmine's and I like her, but I have some reservations.... not sure why. Overall, she's a really cool person and I'm glad I get to help her with her children and watch them tomorrow. I think I'll take them to the museum or zoo, grab a late lunch, and then make dinner for their mom.

Okay - much love and light to one and all. Hope these pictures come up on here. LOL

Awake

Thought of the early morning....

The sound of the rain hitting my window pane and the lulling hush of the roadway slow with vehicles outside soothes my mind as i lay here I'm wide eyed and thinking of you. The smell of incense linger in the room as the last burning ember of it released an aromatic scent to cleanse the night and invite harmony during my slumber. I have meditation music softly in the background and the only other sounds of the silence are the ticking of the second hand on the clock, the automatic rhythm of my  breath, and the tapping of my fingers on my smart phone as I write this.

.... tap, tap, tap..... another word is spelled..... tap, tap, tap... another sentence is formed.... inhale... hushing lullaby of rain and rolling vehicles..... The fragrant incense. .... melodic and calming music plays..... and I'm still wide awake and thinking of you.

XOXOXOXO

Day and Night...

Last night I did two significant things:
1. I finished reading "The Sagan Diary"
2. I fell asleep watching "50 First Dates"


Today was pretty awesome. I got to help Katie Lamb (Touch of Hope) and her business, to move to their new location which is quite close to where I have my studio at Mount Olympus. I liked that I could be of service. I really enjoyed being able to heft things and play "tetris" while attempting to make everything fit in the U-Haul.


Their new facility is so beautiful! It has an out pouring of non-judgmental unconditional love. It felt so good!!! I told one of the practitioners there - who is also one of the previous students from International Institute of Massage Therapy, where I substitute, that I was going to come and hang out at their place! It is definitely where magic will be happening!


I later got to work with one of the current massage students going over muscles; their origins, insertions, and actions. It was fun, but it was also a little long. We were reviewing for just about 3 hours straight! But don't fret - I made it fun. I even did silly little things to help him remember other muscles and what he needed to know for his final next week.


Ah, but let me get back to last night... and part of this morning too. I'll start with "50 First Dates". Well, beside the fact that I love this movie as well... my Darling loves it too. (By the way - I love the soundtrack.) AND, although I fell sleep with the movie eventually watching ME, I woke up this morning and finished watching it and kept replaying the credit portion of the movie so I can listen to the amazing music. One of my favorite songs (version of the songs) on there is: "Every Breathe You Take". *sigh* Love love


Oh, and "The Sagan Diary". Wow - I liked that I could relate to this little read, both militarily and also emotionally. If I were to quote some of my favorite lines... I might as well post and quote the entire read. However, if I HAD TO narrow it down, the ones that are "PG" to write (lol) would be:


- "Let me speak your name"
- "Words fail me"
- "I must apologize to you. I am sitting with you and you are talking to me, telling me about the world to which we are going, where you and I will start our lives together. I'm sure what you're saying is important-critical things I need to know, about a place I have never been but where I will spend the rest of my days. I am sure you are telling me things I need to hear, but I must confess I'm not hearing a single word."
- "This is what I fear. And I confess that part of me hates you a little for it, hates that you have taken my life and so threaded it with yours that I can't pull away without losing myself; I who had always been whole in myself but who now knows what she stands to lose in losing you... I fear a life without you and you without me.... I choose not to share this fear with you. You do not deserve to have it put on you... I feel ashamed I have this fear, based on nothing real, called into existence by my own irrationality."- "There are things you still have to learn about me and this is one of them. It is not that you are too considerate but that I don't mind when you tell me what you want and put that first instead of last."
" I smile and I want to kiss you, but not here and not now. I do not want a last kiss in an old body and in an old life. I want a first kiss in a new life, a promise fulfilled and no regrets. I am looking forward to that kiss. I hold it in my thoughts as I hold myself there and you there with me."


It's interesting that sometimes when I read the words of this author - his writing style and words that rise and fall with emotions, clarity and thought, I sometimes think of my own writings. Especially the ones I express more of the heart, or even in my own journals not written on here. I smile because I can relate to many of the words in that story, I blush because of similar unexpressed emotions too tender to place for the readers on here, I reminisce because many of these thoughts have also been my own.


Where words fail I hope my actions have compensated, and I hope my hands, arms and heart are still enough... for now.


There is no negotiating with Fear. I see it for what it is, for it's purpose. I allow it to show itself, acknowledge it, and make my own informed decisions.


Much love and light...
XOXOXOXO

Thursday's Happenings and The Sagan Diary

Thursday evening was pretty awesome. I got to do Energy work on a client after her massage. There was a little stagnation going on so I used my singing bowl to help her clear some of the vibrational blocks she had going on in her body. When I was doing Reiki on her it was a pretty sweet experience. I was able to see her with a growing belly in the next couple of months... she'll be getting pregnant soon. =)


Then, I was able to get a facial done by one of the co-workers, of whom I traded that she'll work on me instead of paying me space rent for two months. It was our first of 10 sessions. It felt so good. Amazing! LOL


At home, I actually played the guitar and played some old songs I've not sung for a few years. Some of the songs I forgot how to play (sad day), and others I struggled with but was able to find the chords and remember how the tunes went. One of the memorable things that happened last night was that I was able to finish "The Sagan Diary" by John Scalzi. I want to go more into it, however, I don't have the time right now.


Man alive...  I loved "The Sagan Diary"! I'll quote a few of my favorite parts on another entry when I have the time to post. For now... I have to help a student study for next week's finals.


Love and light,


XOXOXOXO

A Beautiful Quote

At the beginning of the year, I was struggling with now knowing my mission or purpose in life. At times I think there are too many instances when I've felt that I've had to do something so significant or world changing in order to have self validation or feel like I've "completed" something. I think this beautiful quote really says it all:


"We don't have to go in search of our mission or purpose. The more we search for it, the more it will elude us. We just have to be ourselves and find our joy in the present moment or do what calls us in the present moment and our mission will unfold." - Anita Moorjani

A Bit of an Accent....

So, many of you know that when I was in high school (Kamehameha Schools) I went to Rarotonga, in the Cook Islands for a student exchange program. This was the summer between grades 11 and 12. Man alive, I can't express how fun and crazy that time was as well. Even though I am a Polynesian, it's sometimes weird to feel so white with my brown skin.


Seriously - if you haven't read my blog entry about going to Hawai'i in 2009 with my friend Julie. Well, in the pictures, you'll see me sipping on a coconut. I believe I wrote something to the effect of "here's a picture of two coconuts". It's true. Sometimes I feel like I'm brown on the outside but white on the inside! LOL... truth is, I'm just me.... with all my awkward and quirkiness.


Anyway, I met this lady (before I got to have a massage!!!!!). Her name is Anna. Needless - to - say, she had questions about the massage school of which I was able to help her with. But, when I got to the counter to speak with her, I had this instant bond with her and I didn't quite know why - yet. It wasn't until she spoke a few words... I knew I was speaking to another island native. She was from Australia. It was quite hilarious when she kept talking, my Cook Island accent started coming back out. My co-workers were staring at me and laughing their butts off. Goodness, it felt weird to speak like that again, yet, I couldn't shut it off! My words were faltering until I accepted it and allowed it that it flowed without struggle. It was lovely.


When we hugged goodbye I felt that she was homesick and I told her "I know your heart is aching, and know that home is always going to be with you." She broke down in my arms... I held and embraced her while she cried. It was a beautiful little journey. I told her to call me next week and I'll take her to the water... one of my sacred place I like to go. Hopefully it will help her heal the ache of being so homesick.